Sugar.Rush.

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Little snacks in the middle of the night
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Little indulgences of sweet addiction
My tummy full o' satisfaction
Back to bed in silent steps
Again to dream, of sweet assortments ♥
ARRRGGGH .. sometims i feel like cutting away my mouth .. its such a small thing but yet it is the reason for major problems to happen .. haiz , i wish i hadnt asked or told anything to sam jus nw .. i shld have jus kept it to myself .. at first i didnt know that it would bag up sooo much problem .. nw , asking sam was nt the problem it was hw he reacted to it .. i agree it is expected but i shld have jus kept quite .. ): nw sam wants to kno if dashvin is in s'pore .. frm wat nesh told me , he is supposed to be here for the wedding on the 24th of dec .. and sam wants to tok to dashvin .. aft sam put dwn , i koled laavan , (i swear to eu that in most situations like this , she's the only person that can make me laugh) , lolxx .. laavan was like "aiyoo , eu shldnt have said that!" and i'm like , ya i kno i shldnt hav said that .. but what could i do , it jus slipped out .. aft laavn hung up , i tried koling dashvin on his cell .. but there was no reply .. one part of me wants dashvin to ans , but another part of me dosent want him to ans .. coz if he ans , itis for surexx that sam will want to tok to him .. but if he dosent ans than its also good .. i dun want dashvin to meet sam and neither do i wan sam to tok to dashvin ..idk why i dun these things to happen but all i kno that if either of these things happen then ppl eu can happily look forward to a WW3 betwen s'pore and aussie .. :/ haiz .. haiz .. hw i wish bhaiya was here nw .. he would have told me what to do and what nt to do .. OH GOD !! hw i miss him soo much .. ="( ... if only my life had the reset button nw , i would jus press it and everything will be as hw they used to be b4 .. why does it always have to be my life that has all these unmanageble problems .. first mom , nw this and then nxt what ??!!?? sometime i think that ending my life ritexx here and nw would be the solution to all my problems in my life .. !! (i'm sry for thinking like that but it jus seems that if my life ended nw , there wont be any reason for sm and dashvin to meet sia .. as simple as that .. and