hahaxx jus kidding daddy .. btw .. i wasnt really hoping for a gift annyways but what to do , my phone is lagggggggging like hell so ya i need a new one and fast .. :) btw tml i giing snow city wif my friends .. once i'm back i'll update eu on it kay .. :) ♥

i'mmmm soooooo damnxx happiexxxx .. !! all these while i was thinking negetively .. (i always tot : what if i dun make it .. i kno my uncle will convince my dad somehow to send me to aussie to do high sch again .. !! ) haiz , but too bad .. i'm going to go on to sec 5 and do my o lvl's .. there is only one more hurdle to go through until i have secondary sch freedom .. !! yaaaay .. and to tell eu the truth i was not expecting a 15 at all .. all i wanted was a pass and it would be more than enough !! but even b4 i got my results the atmosphere was already dull and filled wif tears .. since everyone was crying , tears automatically started falling dwn my face .. hahaxx , i still remember every single detail that happened .. and when it was my turn , i went to my teacher wif tears in my eyes .. but all my teachers could say was " congrats hash , eu got 15 pts ! and eu're through to sec 5 ! " the tears of doubt turned to tears of joy .. ! hw i wish this cld have happened to durga and skahti .. ): but its alritess , it seems that they have to move on .. and babes i will still remember eu no matter wat .. and babes plz dun forget to but cambridge dinner tix so that we can have our prom nitexx together ... !!!!! (:

i woke up at 9:30 today and i started to clean the house .. laavan called the house and i ans'ed her kol .. she was asking why i didnt ans my hp .. then i told her my fone was in silent .. !! aft she put dwn .. i went to check my fone and found there that another person also tried to kol me but it was a number i didnt recognise .. then only i found out that it was ansari's new number .. the night b4 , i had a dream .. and it was abt swensens .. !! so i kold laavan and kavi to ask if they were okay if we went there to eat .. they said they will see hw first .. (: then one all of us met at serangoon mrt , we took a train to dhouby ghaut and decided to pass by swensens to check out the mnu and plan for our lunch .. since student offer only started at 2 we had no choice but to starve ourself for the whole movie .. aft checking out the movie , we started to walk up the hill toward The Grand Cahay .. it was not a long alk but it was preety damnxx hot !! but once we were there , we were welcomed by the refreshing air condition .. (: we took the life all the way up to the 5th level .. then we spoted some coms and we went to use it !! (it was free so why wates time .. ) aft we used the com , we went to the buy tix .. nd priya didi said that since her classes finished early , she said she also want to com , so i said ok la .. the more the merrier .. (; so i bought 4 tix at $6 each .. very cheep (coz got both nebo card and student price) .. hahaxx .. while waiting for didi , we bought popcorn and coke and we were actually eating it even b4 the movie started .. :p .. hahaxx .. it was fun .. and it was time to go to into the theater so we went to the toilet first .. me and kavi came out first so we went outside to wait for laavan .. i placed the popcorn on the table and at the same time , kavi out her bag on the table and pushed the popcorn .. luckly , not the whole popsorc fell (only a lil droped and the cleaner aunty was a nice lady so she said dun worry and asked asked to carry the thing properly .. embarassing sia .. but niways , aft that laavan and kavi went inside first while i waited for didi .. overall the movie was good and sad .. i cried at theend wheh reepicheep left for aslan's country .. ): i really like the rat !! (and i want one that dosent smell , dosent live in a swere , a rat that is cute and cuddley and dose nt bitexx and is not posionous .. !) i kno i can neva get it so ya dun bother .. !! caspian was hot throughout the whole movie and i think luck actually fell for him .. seriously the way she was looking at him all the time .. but niways he fell in love wif the blue star gal .. !! she was pweety but not pweetier than suasn .. so ya i'm going to stp here if nt its going to be a movie spoiler .. !!! haahxx .. aft that we went to swensens for lunch and the serice was damnxx poor !!! we gave in a feedback form and asked them to improve on their service b4 other customers start to complain .. !!!!!!!!!!! but the food was good .. the aft that we went to istana park to take some pic and then we left for home .. once we got home , iwent to take a shower and while i was doing that , didi was doodling in her skatch book .. she was drawing out my name .. (: aft that she played wif my hair .. and there is where i got my FB DP .. !!!! everyone says its cutexx and i look like a pre sch gal .. and this is all thx to didi for her magnificent art peice .. !!! i really had fun today frm today its only 1 wk more .. OH GOD please HELP ME KAY !!

i kno i still got hope .. so please dun let me waste it .. ):

i'm damnxx pissed today .. there is actually a specific rason for it .. someone jus bailed on me !! WTH sia .. i'm seriously damnxx pissed , but idk why i cant be angry at that person .. its jus like my life gos on and i dun bother .. whats happening to me ?? i'm seriously nt the type to build my anger up .. i'm the type to explode on the spot .. AAAARRRRGGGGHHHH .. haiz , niwayz i'm yawning like nobody's bussiness sial .. =O finally at least for one day i'm going to sleep early .. (: and guess what , slipped disc is back and oh god i cant take the pain any longer .. its really damnxx pain .. i think i need to re-vist the doc soon (my my appt is nt until nxt wk tues) .. aiyoo ..

i cant wait to see all the things he bought for me .. clothes , jewellry , chudiah , bindi , payal and many more .. (: .. seriously i cant wait .. ! well this also means : no more late nights wif the computer .. ): my guardian angl is deffi back .. ohhhh i really really mis him .. i hope i have a remote or smt to fast forward to the time my daddy is back .. "oh daddy , faster come back .. eur princess is waiting for eu .. will eu make her wait somemore when she is in the sprits to meet eu !!??!!" .. i'll be waiting ......... ♥

whein i first saw him , he was jus a random guy on fb .. quite good looking on his display pic .. i tried to strike a conversation wif him but i didnt kno what to say .. i also noticed that his relationship status and knew at once that he's out of my league .. haiz .. i gave up too soon .. i jus didnt give a damn abt him , jus like he didnt notice me .. ):


aft that life went on and i met this guy (dashvin) .. this guy was all tooo perfect .. he fitted the description of a perfect human being with no flwas .. he was handsome , kind , charming , caring , gentle , etc ..... i could go on and on and on abt this guy but my hands would be the one hurting .. bu even though he had habbits of drinking and smoking and clubbing , i didnt really care as long as he was minexx .. ! soon we started going out and got along well wifeach other .. all i can say nw is that the memories are still fresh in my mind .. time went by and both of us could understand each other very well .. we were like open books to each other .. on feb 14 this yr , he proposed to me on the fone .. circumstance were such that i didnt get to be wif him on tis special day .. with all the things that were going on in my life at that momment , he made me forget all my problems and i knew ritexx frm the start that he was the one for me .. i told him yes and we got attached .. everything was perfect , he brought me to meet his father and the rest of the fly which only included his granny , elder bro and elder sis .. everyone accepted me and i was happy wif the relationship .. it was while being attached that dashvin got a call frm india .. aft 19 yrs of his life it was the first time he was hearing his mother on the fone .. she was calling to wish him happy  b'day and she also told him that she got a present for him .. it was air tickets to go an visit her in bangloore .. he left and when he came back he brought her along and she was the reason behind our first break up ! ): we didnt meet for a while and i guess he moved on in life with another girl .. wheneva i went to TPM i kenw i was bound to see him lurking in the corner with the girl .. when i saw her for the first time , i knew that she was younger than me and dashvin's father surelly did not agree to the relationship .. i was enjoying my life when all of a sudden his elder bro called me to go clubbing wif them .. i didnt kno why but my parents allowed me to go out that nitexx .. surprisingly .. that was the nitexx we got back together .. aft we got back together , i introed him to my mom and everything was never fine from that momment .. i had sharp feelings that smt was wrong but i just couldnt bring myself to ask him wat it was .. soo later he had to leave for aussie to complete some wrk attachment project in a grvenment hospital in an aussie uni .. haiz if i'd known sooner .. it was jus a matter of time when i couldnt handle my relationship any longer .. i finally asked him why he didnt have a singh at the back of his name and he finally confessed to me that he's partly muslim frm his mother's side .. my heart didnt break but i felt as if i was being betrayed .. )": i finally got the courage to end my relationship , because i knew that if i didnt do it nw , my mom will interfere with my problem and everything will blow out of proportion .. so i had no choice .. and i didnt want to compromise then and nw .. i'm sry dashvin , i had to do it .. if eu are reading this then i hope eu understand ..


i'm not goona make the same mistake again .. but all i can say is that i'm falling in love again .. but this time its gonna be a secret .. ♥